It may take 12 years, maybe 14, maybe 17, maybe 19, maybe 30, maybe 100, but you'll know when you find your true love.
And it will be worth it no matter how long of a wait, or how hard a time without it.
Love is electric and automatic. The instance you see them and really look at them something unexplainable happens. It's not just butterflies in your tummy from being nervous, or thinking how gorgeous they are and wanting their body. It's more like this magnet pulling you towards them, your mind and soul deeply thirsting to find out who they are, and what they think. Their personality attracts you and reels you in, and it's undeniable, you cannot pull out.
You know it's not just a crush when it doesn't go away, and your deepest fear is that it will go away. When the whole entire world has this new purpose, and is turning only when they talk, or when they so much as smile or laugh.
When you always want to learn more and you feel that you do want to share your life with them, and you cannot imagine it so without them. When you feel their pain as if it was your own, and would likely kill yourself just so they could breathe still. Anything for them.
It's not about being desperate and sharing some laughs and liking things about them, it's about liking everything and not needing them to change one bit because their faults thrill you as much as their merits. When what they wear, what they eat, and what they appear as no longer matters.
Sure, it's nice to find somebody with the same personality and stuff. That's a great bonus, but has nothing to do with that FEELING when it's true love. When they literally leave you shuttering, when they make things dizzy. Goosebumps when you hear their name called, when you can feel their presence with you. When they talk, you suddently awaken. No fear or despair strikes you long enough to burn you.
When their touch, just a quick touch, leaves you motionless, not knowing how to react or what to do. When you don't even have the words to say how you feel, because it's just this FEELING that you will know when you see it.
It's when you can tell them anything, and they can tell you anything because you are an extension of them, and them of you. When you can talk about nothingness and find meaning in it, and when teardrops and smiles equally fill you with pleasure in their presence.
Unexplainable glory and completeness.
And so worth the wait, I know it will be that way.
For you.
Beautiful and soft and sweet and enticing, you cannot escape it.
And when it comes it will be so worth the wait and pain, don't you think?
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